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art games ramble tech

boomer shooters

Weekenders on our own

i’ve been quite rowdy this past year. as mentioned many times before i have consumed many books, but that’s not of course all. i’ve been trying to play and finish a whole lot of games as well! my library has still a lot to go before the rate of games in a completed state is a bit more substantial, especially against the backlog of an ever-accumulating rate of humble bundle keys, and games acquired during different steam sales months and years ago during a more naïve chapter of my youth. i’m wiser now, and limited by spending to games of a more refined taste. if that isn’t a show of maturity and true refinement in consumption of culture, then i’m but a silly silly boy.

disregarding my superior collection of games, here’s some of the ones i want to bring up quickly (a lot of these aren’t completed, hehe)

finished kero blaster not too many weeks ago, and it was a nice experience for those who enjoyed cave story, and i’m very glad that it was made! quite simple gameplay, but very enjoyable. want to check out the complementary free demos as well (pink hour & pink heaven).

the silver case & the 25th ward: the silver case: a common theme around the games i’ve picked up is often the inability (or refusal?) to make many parts of them ANYTHING but extremely tedious, but still dripping with soul and passion. both suda51, swery65 (deadly premonitions, D4: Dark Dreams Don’t Die,), and Yoko Taro (you KNOW nier) as well are usually common culprits of this. i bring them up as they are mostly from the same “”scene”” (japanese….). TSC and 25th Ward are both something more than, but still simply visual novels with extremely well-written characters and stories that will make your head twirl. the games seem to constantly contradict themselves, but i got very invested into them and their characters. wowza, these games are NOT for everyone, and i think that’s OK for art.

oh me and my boys played a lot of transport tycoon deluxe for a period, it was a swell time! haha. we did a couple of mods as well, mostly for the industry production chains. they are quite simple in the vanilla version after a while, so the possible extensions for them are very welcoming and bring a lot more to the game!

another great game with great characters is of course the widely well-recieved Disco Elysium. you most likely already know about this one, so i’ll continue onwards. (I’m the Friday Tribunal Cop, the Authority Incarnate, Lard Man, Threshold of Pain.)

there’s been a couple of chill smaller indie games added to my weekly gaming. among these are mini motorways, dorfromantik, and islanders. quick to pick up and just play during a short session. very simple and short game loops, haha.

i’m a well-known homestuck enthusiast, and i finally went and played the first hiveswap game. it’s a point&click. first half quite enjoyable, second eh.

northernlion is a menace, and i’m a sucker for the games he’s pushed down my throat daily. snkrx, luck be a landlord, pogostuck and loop hero are among these. some of these games i already knew beforehand, but yeah he’s played them as well so i bunched them together in this section. while we’re still bundling together games into a quick summary, here’s some rougelite-like games i’ve been playing as well: binding of isaac: repenteance, disc room, voidigo, POST VOID.

BOOMER SHOOTERS!!!!!!!! ultrakill and amid evil have been on my mind for a couple of months, espc ultrakill with its great mechanics and ability to put me into a different mindset similar to post void. you just disconnect your brain and let the Flow take you over. it’s great, very great. currently playing cruelty squad as well, and i’m gonna try and pick up dusk! new blood games are really hitting hard, hahaha. amid evil was a treat, dusk is more alike to it (Very quake-influenced). will try and pick up quake too hehe.

other than cruelty squad i’m currently playing axiom verge as well, almost finished symphony of the night so i was kind of in a mood for metroidvanias (and the second one just came out so time to finish the first). need to continue on critters for sale as well, very cool so far. wattam. celeste. omori.

tarot of the day

Page of Cups

X – Wheel of Fortune

XVIII – The Moon

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meta ramble tech

greentext filler episode

All lectures and seminars will be on youtube. There are no in-person lectures.

i’ve been thinking about what to write the last few days. there’s a couple of subjects i would certainly spend some time on. i usually find myself thinking about these half an hour before my bedtime (10 PM, we’re tryin’ to stay Healthy). so here’s a quick filler post, with some 4chan greentexts that i’ve downloaded onto my computer.

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meta ramble tech

goodbye oscarcederberg.com, hello oscar.cederberg.xyz

let’s see knös’ webiste

finally a migration from the old oscarcederberg.com-page has been done to a 24/7 server with a new completely new domain. it took a lot of fiddling around with debian configurations on a ubuntu server and outdated mysql with unicode charsets from god knows when, but we’re here.

welcome to The Next Level

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music ramble schizophrenic tech

doomsday

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all caps when you spell the man’s name

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music ramble schizophrenic tech

suburban war

This wall is not for the communicative!

And why color shift?

there’s a lot to take in here about my experiences with The Suburbs by Arcade Fire. i think you’d call it a synchronous artwork, as there were many different projects surrounding the album. i’m gonna briefly write about two of these, alongside the album itself, then i might discuss some of the existential horror i feel about suburbs.

Moving Past the Feeling: A Decade in The Suburbs | by Alex Chocholko |  Medium

i actually borrowed this album from the local library in Kävlinge, and i got pretty obsessed with it. it was so different from anything i had listened to before (swedish pop and the beatles), i really enjoyed it.

The Suburbs is the first concept album i might’ve ever listened to, or at least the first concept album that made a big enough impression on ~10 year old me to still linger after almost a decade. it’s one of my favorite albums, and while that is mostly because of nostalgic bias i think it’s still warranted. everything is subjective, but i would like to think there is some objective truth to it being an honest to god excellent album.

just the title track alone is a great expression of the teenage interpretation of the american life in a suburb. the modern millennial living in the american dream is further explored in other tracks, such as “Modern Man” and “City with No Children” (which are both excellent tracks), but i would like to focus on titles such as the title track below, “Suburban War”, and “Wasted Hours” when i discuss the suburban horror

the wilderness downtown was one of the first ones i really remember, it was actually it that brought me into arcade fire and the suburbs with it’s accompanying music track “We Used to Wait”.

i mentioned before how i enjoyed internet experiences a lot, that’s what internet should be about. that’s what you did in school when you were bored, just adventuring and browsing an almost indefinite amount of small interactive worlds.

it might just be the communist inside me who’s talking. can’t really put to words how i feel about how commercialized the internet has become.

a short movie, featuring music from “The Suburbs”

early millennials are very much influenced by the cold war and the economic disasters that struck them during their adulthood, i think it’s very much why they are like they are today (broken and annoying)

this movie has some very interesting scenes, i think the entirety of The Suburbs experience is played out in some alternative history world where-in the cold war actually broke out into full-on war. this would explain much of the background shit that happens in this short film, as well as many of the recurring motifs in The Suburbs (war, bombs and the like). it is also possible that those are just metaphors to broken friendships, while the movie just takes it a bit more literal. i still find it fascinating, and it’s an interesting supplement to the album.

there is one tumblr post i saw a couple of years back that summarize the feelings i have about suburbs. it explains very much the nihilistic viewpoint i have about it in the form of a short slice of life story.

nothing in suburbs feels real, shit like this story happens all the time in a constant cycle and it doesn’t matter at all. some people are born in it, grown up in it and died in it, and their life was in the grander scheme totally meaningless. the suburbs are isolated and empty, draining all life that might exist. all you can do is escape from it, that’s the only way out from it.

the suburbs doesn’t only kill life, it turns life into total mediocrity. you read the text and you realize how average all the characters are, and they seem to not grasp that. it’s what they are comfortable with. these events seem to constantly happen in some suburban families, can you imagine the mental torment it must be to live like this? how do you survive?

i know how bad my wording might sound, after rereading the text i realize that it really seems like i am looking down at these people… that’s not something i want to do. it’s not the people that live in the suburbs that i dislike, it’s the suburbs. it’s the suburbs. it’s the suburbs. it is a place devoid of meaning and life.

i am deadly afraid of my life turning mediocre, i don’t want the suburban life. it’s hard to make a direct comparison between american and swedish suburban living, but sweden is well-known for it’s isolated living. the difference is that the picketed fences that separate gardens and families aren’t physical, they are totally hidden to the eye to the average swede.

[21:54] : 
have you read about the “fun pizza”
it’s suburban psychological horror
[21:54] : 
owo
[21:56] :
[IMAGE]
i hate it so much
i get cold sweats from reading it
anxiety grows in my stomach
[21:57] : 
Oh yeah I know that
[21:58] : 
i feel sick
[21:58] : 
its great isn’t it
its vault-tec level
[21:58] : 
suburban psychological horror, i hate it i hate it i hate it
[21:59] : 
honestly tho, fruits bop
[21:59] 
it’s not the fun pizza that horrifies me
it’s everything else in the story
the fun pizza is just a sympton of something even more dreadful
the promise of the white suburban family life is a lie
it’s rotten to the core
[22:03] 
ye
american suburbia is a literal hell
[22:06] 
i dread it, literally one of my worst fears
[22:06] 
imagine living in a small suburban home surrounded for miles by other completely identical homes all owned by middle class office workers
[22:07] 
your wife is neurotic, you are an alcoholic
you both hate each other, but stay because of the kids
the kids are doing ok in school, average grades
AAHHHH
[22:08] 
the neighbors having it a tiny bit better, which is always why every night there is a fight
about how neighbors are going to slightly more prestigious place for a vacation
and you need to one up them in a passive-aggressive way
[22:08] 
it’s the mediocrity of it all that breaks me
nothing of it matters
[22:08] 
no ups, no downs
[22:08] 
it doesn’t matter
[22:08] 
its a life free of consequences
devoid of choice
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ramble schizophrenic tech

another∞note

Recover Files…

the less known alternative shot of the classic windows xp wallpaper

this is a continuation from the post a couple of days ago about the infinite universes. there’s a cool internet experience that i enjoy.

https://libraryofbabel.info/

internet should be filled with things such as these. would you call it an esoteric experience? unsure… i think esoteric is a good word to describe it, but there are probably better. it has a cultist-like kind of a vibe, but is grounded in mathematics (i guess)

more of internet should be like this, like i said.. less trash!!!!

good riddance

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ramble tech

decried deceitful december decadence dreams

Ashes to ashes, funk to funky. We know Major Tom’s a junkie.

yes it’s been truly horrible these past few weeks

from business in software reports and assignments every week to totally neglecting mathematical statistics i’m happy to announce that i released my first game since 2018. it’s playable at NEWGROUNDS and it’s one of the minigames in the arcade. very happy to be able to finish it, even if it took some crunch (polish game devs got nothing on me)

other than that, i am now 21 years old which doesn’t really matter much because the age to buy alcohol here is 20 so not much to celebrate in that regard hehe

oh yeah the consultant project flopped, so that’s great. and i also got a job at arm for the summer. very happy, hell yeah.

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ramble tech

november plans

I cut the brakes on this car. Bye bye, nagging wife!

these are my november plans

  • mathematical statistics
    • do weekly assignments
    • attend labs
    • exam
  • business in software
    • attend weekly seminars
    • project
    • assignment
  • automatic control
    • do weekly assignments
    • finish lab 3
    • exam
  • newgrounds christmas collab minigame submission
  • consultant work (if it goes through)

gotta be honest. i hope the client for the consultant work completely diss us. i don’t have a lot of experience with react native, and i will not have time with much else if i have to do it by my own…

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dreams ramble tech

trojan

from the roof top~somewhere in silence[sniper’s theme]

i’m still itching for creating some kind of a game, i had last year a will to create something akin to LSD: Dream Simulator, but top-down and showcasing my dreams instead.

a common thing brought up in my dreams would be trains and subways, so they would be in the middle of the game i thought about, connecting everything. you’d start there, and if you wanted to randomly go to another “dream” you would just go back there and take a train. sometimes it could interrupt and a random event would happen during the train ride, or that was the thought at least.

i never came too far with that game idea, mostly because of i wasn’t sure how the random generation of “dream maps” would work out… it’s always the little things that just kill all progress and will for me.

i’ve always thought that if i could work together with someone else i would have enough incentive to work… don’t really have the will to work on my own without a deadline and what not. as soon as i meet an obstacle, i’d turn right around and give up. it sucks.

Teeth-O-Meter

in any case, i’ve had these spurs of need to create something big, multiple times and i’ve yet to actually to anything in the wake of these needs

i had another one just recently, but much smaller in scope. i thought that everything would be easier if i got GameMaker Studio 2, but that piece of shit costs like $80, and if i want to compile to HTMLwhatever so i can upload it on NewGrounds, that would be over a $100 bucks more and that’s just insane. so i cracked it.

i like to think that i’m a pretty smart dude, i’m pretty good and clean on the internet. i know what’s sketchy and not, and i don’t download mp3- and mkv-files ending with a .exe…….. yet i might’ve “”accidentally”” downloaded a trojan now >:)), or at least if i can trust Windows Defender. the crack works, let me just tell you that, and it seems it is pretty well-rated on the sketchy-ass forum i downloaded it from… and the author of the crack sounds veeerryyyyy reassuring when he says “it’s not a virus, just a false positive guys!”. yeah… i still got almost a heart attack. i’m so stupid.

anyway… this piece of shit software wasn’t even worth it. i am pretty sure i could do much the same thing in the old GameMaker Studio 1.4 anyway and i own that LEGALLY. another pseudo mind-obstacle that will make me turn around and walk straight the way back home

whatever, peace out fool

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ramble tech

M̿D̿C̿

Understanding the Atom_OLD

we’re finally here one billion, six-hundred million seconds since the 1st of january 1970 ( i like to call it M̿D̿C̿ as i mentioned before ) of course this event is useless in a cultural sense but is based on much about the same amount of science as any other time measurement epoch turn of the century-thingy

interesting facts:

we passed 1 billion seconds on the 9th september 2001
it is only 400.000.000 seconds left until we achieve a total of 2 billion in unix time, this will be on around 03:30 am (UTC) on the 18th of may 2033 … wow!

UNIX time runs in a signed 32 bit register, that’s a lot of possible seconds

on the 7th february 2036 NTP time will overflow (it is based on seconds since 1st of january 1900 and is unsigned!!!), leading to a new epoch in the NTPv4 protocol! don’t worry, they have another 32 bits for epochs..

32-bit unix, on the other hand, will overflow around 2 years afterwards

64-bit unix is unreasonable and will only overflow after the year 292.277.026.596